Here is a little update. I took almost two years off of Youtube. There are several reasons why I have been absent. I did not know where I would fit in anymore.
I married a military man when I was 20 years old. He is now my ex husband and since then, I remarried military when I was 26 years old. I did not have any intentions to remarry military but it so happened that I fell in love for the 2nd time in my life.
Fast forward 10 years, my husband who had been in the service for almost 15 years was forced to retire out of the Army. They call this an RCP. Not because he was in trouble for any reason, but because he did not make rank fast enough. This regulation has since changed and my husband missed it by a year. We enjoyed the military lifestyle even with all of its hardships. My husband was involuntarily separated and he decided to join the reserves. During this time there was some anger on his part, totally understandable but I also felt some sort of way too. I was frustrated for him and I felt somewhere through all of this, we would lose a huge part of who we had become. A military family.
It has been just about two years since my husband has been out of Active Duty and we have rediscovered a whole new way of living. We planned for his exit almost 8 months in advance and we made some choices right away to secure our future. I plan to vlog on my Youtube channel about all of this soon.
As for me, well I started a new career in juvenile corrections. I would start working outside of the home full-time after being a stay at home mom for seven years. All of these changes have been quite challenging at times and you will hear a lot about our struggles throughout my new blog.
I decided about a week ago that I would revamp all of the facets of my life. I joined mom groups that would help me with the transition from stay at home mom to working mom. I also found support from others who have survived life after the military. I was a nervous wreck but I let a higher power guide me though all of this. A week ago I realized that I missed putting my thoughts on “paper.” I had stopped sharing so much of our lives with the world that somehow I lost myself in work and home duties. I missed this so much. So I restarted my blog…completely wiped out my old blog and started fresh!
I cannot wait to see where this takes me. As I mentioned before, I became angry and frustrated at the mere fact that we were no longer an active duty military family. How are we going to make this our permanent home? Or how were we going to make it financially? These thoughts worried me on a daily basis and I became so consumed with it all. Until one day, not sure when that day was, it could have even been last month, I let go, surrendered freely. I surrendered to our new life that we have established. No more deployments, no more having to pick up and move, and no more unknowns.
I can now start writing and living through a more positive lens. I can start to bury roots here in the state of Washington and not be afraid to make more friendships. I am not bitter anymore at the thought that we have lost something, but rather given the opportunity to do more with what we have. I am excited about new ventures and creating memories. Our journey has changed and along the way so have we, and we are okay with that.
Stay tuned for more.
“Every next level of your life, will demand a different version of you.” -author unknown.